justapynchofblusey:

aaronminyards:

Honestly, can we take a look at the first moment where Gansey definitely, definitely let himself realize that he was going to die? After Persephone did?

It was against the rules, but Gansey crouched down beside her, one of his knees against her back, one against her knees, and hugged her. She curled against him, hands balled up against his chest. He felt a hot tear slip into the dip of his collarbone. He closed his eyes against the sun through the window, burning hot in his sweater, foot falling asleep, elbow grinding into the metal bed frame, Blue Sargent pressed up against him, and he didn’t move.

Help, he thought. He remembered Gwenllian saying that it was starting, and he could feel it, winding out faster and faster, a ball of thread caught in the wind.

Starting, starting–

He could not tell who was comforting whom.

(whispers) and then Gansey doesn’t have a POV chapter for the rest of the book

O H NO THAT LITERALLY HURTS SO MUCH WORSE NOW

“He could not tell who was comforting whom.”

OH MY GOD THATS IT IM DONE